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May 13

At my 20’s, I was fearless and adventurous. June 6th, 2005 (10 years ago) I came to US for the first time as an exchange student “work and travel”. I did not speak English, did not know anybody, I did not know where I’m going to live. I just had $500 in my pocket, my dreams and desire for adventure. Sure enough, it was extraordinary time; it was one spectacular time of my life!!! No fear – made me powerful!

Now, I’m looking at myself asking, where this fear came from to my life?!? Why it took control over me? Fear – not to be able to pay bills. Fear – not to meet someone’s expectations. Fear of unknown future?!?

Why and how it happened? Is it a part of being a grown-up?

IT’S ENOUGH!!!!

Fear is a great tool. The best way to manipulate! You can sell me all kinds of insurance – I will buy them all!!!! You can say to me “ BE SMART! Make right decisions!!!” And I will make all these decisions “someone gave me”! Of cause, these decisions are not my, but ……. I need to be smart!!

Caught myself fearing!!!  So, message of the day for me!

VICTORIA! If you keep your fears, I’m not playing with you anymore! Because you are not fun!

(Then this monolog came to my mind….

Am I afraid to die? – No, not really..

Am I afraid to lose my house? Yes …… hahaha shouldn’t it be all way around?!?! (Stupid blondy)))))))))

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